If I actually sat down and evaluated my life in the present moment, I would be in disbelief. Disbelief because years ago, I would have never imagined I would be where I am right now.
All of the people and all of the things that had once been so prevalent in my life back then have now faded and gone their separate ways. Even in a matter of months, everything has become so different. The people I had once called my second family have grown and accumulated new family members that I cannot put names or faces on. Late night conversations and message threads with people that used to mean everything to me have shriveled down to one word answers or silence. Every goal and dream that I once had are now being re-evaluated. The love and passion that I once had for dance isn’t the same as it used to be. I am not as energetic as I used to be.
But despite all of these mishaps, I have gained much as well. People that have faded away throughout the years still meet me at crossroads despite our busy schedules, and nothing has changed. And even when people have gone separate ways in my life, new people have come in and taken shelter. New late night conversations, and new message threads. I have a new second family. My goals and dreams are being re evaluated, but the prospects aren’t looking as grim as they used to. Grand opportunities are popping up all over the place for me and dance, rekindling our once fiery relationship. My energy slowly rebuilding once again.
I guess things will always change. People will always change. I will also change. Nothing is permanent. Everything happens for a reason. There will ups, and there will be downs. But if it’s good, it’s pleasant. If it’s bad, it’s experience.
This is life.
SUPA OLD.
Always caught up. Always controlled and overcome by emotions. Always a prisoner to poisonous thoughts and an over exaggerated imagination. Creativity once my best friend, now my worst enemy. My right sided brain schemes and produces scenarios that live far from truth. My left sided brain lays silent, and dormant. No logic. All emotion. Must recall my faith. Must regain control. It’s too late to make it. But it’s never too late to try. I believe I can do the right thing.
The Ides of March: As I look back, the more I realize the less interactive I’ve become... -
As I look back, the more I realize the less interactive I’ve become with others. I honestly don’t socialize as much, mainly because I have a busy schedule, but also due to the fact the older I get the more I realize everyone around me is an idiot. Okay well most people are, but still that doesn’t…
Agreeed.
1. Take responsibility for all of your actions.
2. Do not make other people suffer for your mistakes.
3. Learn to do things on your own.
4. You don’t have to trust everyone, but at least trust the people you love.
5. Most importantly, trust yourself, fully.
6. Realize that sometimes you have to do things you don’t want to in order to get something you do want.
7. You only receive as much as you give.
8. Look for the good in people.
9. Everyone is human; we make mistakes and we must accept that and learn from it.
10. You can’t change other people, but you can change yourself.
11. Give it your all or don’t even start.
13. You must understand that the world doesn’t revolve around you. People will sometimes put themselves in front of you. Realize that they are human.
14. No two people are exactly the same. No two relationships are exactly the same. Don’t judge your own based on another’s.
15. Stop asking for advice. Make decisions on your own because at least it’ll be what you want. Not what others want for you.
16. Forgive people for their past because it has shaped their present. Embrace who they are now, and not linger on who they used to be.
17. Nothing is permanent, but don’t let this keep you from enjoying the moment while it lasts.
18. No one can be with you all the time, but the least you can do is always be there for yourself.
19. Don’t cling onto every word that someone says. Sometimes over thinking every word causes exaggeration. This causes unnecessary anxiety.
20. Nothing is ever as complicated as you make it out to be.
21. Mistakes only occur once. Everything else after that are choices.
22. Not everyone is out to get you. Your biggest enemy is yourself.
23. Things out of your control, let it go.
24. Things you cannot change, accept it or leave it.
25. No one knows you better than you do.
26. Live in the now. Take life day to day, moment to moment.
27. It’s good to have future goals and aspirations, but don’t become so engulfed in them that you forget about the present.
28. Nothing happens or grows without effort.
29. Good things come to those who work their asses off for it.
30. Nothing is permanent or fixed; try to keep an open and flexible mind.
31. Be willing to accept and adapt to change.
32. Everyone’s life is of equal value.
33. Remember to be grateful. No one or nothing owes you anything.
34. Replace negative thoughts with positive ones.
35. Negative thoughts only win because you give attention to them. Take your attention somewhere else.
36. If the glove doesn’t fit, then there’s no use forcing it to.
MMM LESBIANS <3